Two weeks ago, I went for a ride with Kevin Hessler. The guy is cool. After the ride, I realized how much I enjoy riding, challenging myself, hanging out with other people. I realized that deep down inside, I really do miss the racing scene. But not just the scene, the community that is the core of the scene.
I had backed off and just done a couple of local races, ORAMM, Pisgah Stage Race, attempt at P111k. But, not having set goals, I wandered around, training when I felt like it, giving a half effort. It didn't work for me. Low to no success is not what I was after.
I realized last week that I should try adding a couple more races to my schedule next year and get some consistent training in. I never want to feel as badly as I felt for that long again.
The thing is, I love helping other people. But I have realized that I have to balance that with me time. I overdo it on the former and don't pay attention to the latter. I do this a lot. Sometimes I even feel guilty for going out for rides. In my head, I tell myself that that time could be spent doing something productive for someone else. I have to train my brain to understand that if I don't take time for myself, that I won't be healthy enough to help people around me.
Now I gotta look at finances and schedule, to see which races I can get to!
Lookin' forward to 2016!
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